Before another chapter ends

Don't envy me.

Year End Sale, and I just cannot stand 70%. Last night, we (my parents, Dura and I) went to the mall and brought things that enlighten us. Our eyes were sparkling over few things and we got it back home. We, girls are totally a shopping maniac. I wonder how my mama can stand entertaining her three daughters. Yippie ya yo! Although we still haven’t over the issue in Johore, but it doesn’t mean we have to think and be moan over that thingy for so long right?

Since I’m on the ‘flag day’, I feel like indulged myself with an ice cream and relaxing my mind and soul. Yeah! I ate the creamy smoochie icy later the night. OMG! This is life. From another retreat to another. I just love living a life like this. Don’t envy me. I’m just a lady that in love with myself so much. And for the New Year Eve, I think I need to cancel my plan to follow the band tour because I’ll be celebrating somewhere else where the skies are blue. But still, hopefully we will be celebrating the Eve near the beach or by the seaside, or wherever that the water flows. Because I need that water element on that night. Freakingly insane huh? Don’t need to know the details. My life is full of sub-plots and each plots got their own conflicts. Even worst sometime the conflicts combine. Thank god I manage to handle them. Anyway, back to the New Year Eve’s plan, I might be going somewhere that I’m not practically having a clue about the place with my parents and Dura. But since I’m over 21, I got my other sub plan there with one of bestie in college.

Hurm, I just got another not so good news, which is involving my studies. I really wish that the not so good news is just another rumor that always spread around my tiny campus. I don’t wanna that to be real. And that doesn’t fade my enthusiasm to study. It’s a challenge that I need to face. I know that wasn’t my mistake. The syllabus sucks. If not, the fellow miimians that enrolled here with me before won’t quit lah right? But I cannot comment a lot over this. Later I’m just afraid they will sack me out from the campus pulak because critic over this sensitive issue. I can express my anger better on my private blog. Talking about private blog of mine, I got a confession to make. *blushing* I will jot it down later. Not so soon.

For the new semester that coming really soon, I’m thinking of bringing the string so that I can learn to play it a.s.a.p. Hopefully by 2nd February. Why? Well, I got my own reason and nobody needs to know. I’m currently preferred not to tell every single details too much on this blog since I knew a few stalker that stalking me and they are pretty annoying themselves. I never give a damn because life ain’t just about them. I got many things to catch up with and whether that person like it or not, I have to ignore. Pretty funny how life works. Sometime we have to act like a total stranger with someone we use to know very well because of a slight misunderstanding that occurs. Realizing that I’m still young and there are millions of opportunities in front of me, so I need to focus on my own life first. The only thing that matter right now is my family, studies and last but not least my supportive friends.

Hurmm... I’m still thinking of getting a new pair of shoe. My mama knows what kinda shoe I wanted. I’m not hoping to get them before the school reopens, but hey who wouldn’t be glad if getting something that he/she always wanted, right? Same goes with me. Whatever it is, the most important thing that need to be done is I will be changing my hairstyle again before the school starts. Weh, it seems like in every break I will be going and meet my hairdresser. Ya la, new air need a few changes, one of it get my hair done! OMG~! I know I’m completely losing my mind right now. As long as I’m happy enjoying life like there is no tomorrow then that’s enough. Watta big spender I am! *Sigh!*

p/s : Fyi, I'm not working this sem break.

Let the pictures speak #009

On the way up to the Highlands after

settling some big issue in Malacca and Johore.

DAY 1 : PEACE. I'm not in the mood of fighting with anyone.

DAY 2 : shop, shop and shop for us and Nadia. :)

DAY 3 : I don't wanna go back to my hectic life, PLEASEEE..

Way back home to Penang.

Short note : Twirl of my HOTwheels

how should i go on or move around without you to carry my stuff?

I had completed my assignment for this semester and will hand in it by tomorrow. Anyway, right after signing off this blog, I’ll be heading down south to see my lover condition. Please be okay. I need you badly by next year. I’m not giving you to ANYONE ANYMORE.

Dammit!

Enough said.

:’(

Sorry lil D, I'm not in the mood to contact you. Let me cool down first.

p/s : ILY Cengkerik.

Exam Howls

stirve the best.

On monday was my doll’s birthday so after I had submitted my assignment, I went to Bukit Bintang since I wanna buy something for her. I gave her an Australian design teddy with a gown and a flower near to its ear to symbolize me (well they called me saraorchid sometimes, wat a name!) and hope she likes it.

Guess what? She loves it! Haha. I knew it. This doll that I heart, although she is twenty something, but she is so naïve, so immature, (both of my younger sis are way mature than her) so stubborn at times and easily to fall for an idiotic loser around the campus. We are totally a different character. But we love one another. Once, I brought her to meet AJ and other guy friend of mine that I kinda close with, they were shocked to see with whom I get close with right now. But just what I said before in my previous post, it’s a good start. I’m aging. Not that old, but I mean that I need to change to be a better one. Be with her is a good start.

Then, later that evening, I gave the box of ‘guilty pleasure’ to El. I asked him to keep that since neither of us can take that home. It wasn’t mine fyi. I got that from my friend’s rental house in Ampang last week, after helping her to move out. Before that, I was studying with bunch of girls and all the sudden he texted me – asked me to standby. I replied back and said I just cannot go out with him because I need to revise. It was raining; and since we miss each other so damn badly, (last we met is on his birthday if I’m not mistaken) we celebrated at the Curve. We spent a few minutes in the car, talking, teasing and etcetera etcetera. After waved this brother of mine from a different parent’s goodbye, I got upstairs, still thinking of him. El looked so stoned. He told me that he was so tired because he just started working.

Anyway, I had done for my exam. Hopefully everything will end up nicely as some of the subjects taken were pretty tough. Amen. After I got out from the examination hall, I registered my subjects for next semester, sent my hostel application form, met my lecturer that saw me crying in the hall while answering his paper a few days ago before met my buddies that I love to hangout with. They are like my guardian angels.

Then, my classmate texted me, she told me that she bought fried mushroom for me with mango blended. I went and met her, saved a little mushie for my doll because she didn’t eat anything and packed up my belonging. By 4:00 pm, I was already on my way back to Penang with my parents. Nothing can stop me to stay much longer there. LOL! I already list up my plan before the school open. I will be sending my assignment next week, before chilling myself at a few places.

Mid next year, I’m going to find a place to rent. Hostel is so hectic. I cannot do my work there. First semester of degree in this campus is kind of dieses that kill everyone in my batch. Quite a number of them won’t be continuing their study in this place anymore. Now I understand why most of the diploma students don’t wanna do degree here. Well up to you guys then, I cannot give up, I must get my degree scroll here, working somewhere before continuing studying again. Hope by that time I can get serious involve in relationship too. *Blush* Tomorrow I wanna do some research in the library. Nerdy me! It is for the sake of doing assignment. I have too.

Study weak?

too much.

Study week isn’t a study week like I use to have last time. There are full of replacement classes and extra classes. Plus presentation and final too on this week making this week is just like ordinary week.

Erm anyway…

Did I mention that I’m on my final exam soon? If I haven’t, then I wanna clarify to anyone who never understands me that currently I’m so busy like you cannot imagine (though right now I’m in Penang for Eiduladha). I have tonnes of assignment to be submitted before the due date given by my lecturer. So practically I won’t do the blogging til my last paper, that is on the eighth. But I cannot confirm. If I feel like writing on here or on my other blog, I will do the writing. Just to let go anything that’s on my head.

I got my third language paper on Monday. That is on the 30th.

Follow by the History and philosophy of art paper and Cultural studies paper on 1st December.

On 2nd December, I got theory and philosophy of creative writing paper.

No exam on the 3rd, but another paper coming up on 4th, another theory of writing for TV and film and ya, I need to submit my short stories, poems, script for 1st act, script treatment, synopsis, and characteristic individualization information by that date.

My heaviest paper for my faculty will be held on the 8th of December, Malay Literature.

I need to clear up my things before 14th and need to submit another big assignment before 18th. OMG!

For my NYE, I already got my own plan. I’m heading down to Penang right after my paper. I should neutralize myself more often so that I won’t be influence by the evil temptation that’s always knocking me badly.

I just can’t resist.

So that’s why I need to go back home.

Now is not an appropriate time for other side things. I’m sorry. If you don’t understand me, I don’t ask you too. Hahaha!

I haven’t start revision a thing.

Gosh!

Mood swings : it’s irritates me

don't wanna scream and shout.

The situation always like that. I will be the one who will be do the talking and might feel like talking to the wall while the others are busy with their phones. I can ask someone to call me too la wei. But there is a time where we need some privacy. No other thing matters. It’s very irritating.

In term of if you went out with me, then your phone keeps on ringing or you keep on texting around, perhaps you should train yourself to learn respect. There are way to approach people, make yourself prepared enough to be more presentable.

I don’t wanna blaming anyone. Just think about what you would feel if you be in my shoe. The person that you wanna talk to or spending your quality time with is not paying any attention and would rather die from hold any second replying or looking at his/her phone. What’s the point you be there? Obviously you are not important by that time. Hello, I also have a phone and I will do the texting or calling if I feel like to. I’m not too obsessed with this little gadget.



Same goes when I went out and watching movies. Inside the cinema, I just hate people who love to talk a lot. It’s ok for the reaction sound effect, but no need to tell the synopsis to others or talk about your personal business around. I’m not bothered to listen. If you need a therapist, go and find one. I cannot be your consultant. I have not graduated from any institution yet. And ya, I have that little selfish behavior in this situation.

I can accept if someone that I spending time with contacting other people, but kindly just mentioning who. I don’t mind if you wanna contact anyone. Oh ya, anyone. But please don’t lie. Just be yourself. If you feel awkward talking on the phone in front of me, yea, you may please go elsewhere, but don’t make it often til I annoyed. I may say that I’m ok whereas I’m not.

Yessss.. that my usual dialogue/line in real life.

My mouth saying, “I’m okay! Nevermind”

The inner me saying, “SUFFERING!”

*cursing!* LOL.

B meets Z : exam around the corner

flower ♥er.

Finally I managed to submit the assignment given on time. At first I was really terrified when they told me that I could not print at the library. My bad, I didn’t ask my parent to buy me a printer. Ya la, I don’t feel it is necessary sangat pun. Furthermore, I think if printing at library will cost me around 10 cents per paper, so it will be more economical if I print there than using my own printer.

Sadly, I need to spend about 15 bucks to print outside my campus. Dammit! Anyway, after I submitted my assignment, I don’t feel like staying at my hostel, so me and few fellow friends of mine went out and have fun since I feel a bit stress out after assignment. It’s a normal phenomenon for a student like me.

*Giggle*

After I got back, I have a really nice rest. And on the next day, (today la) I feel like wanna watch movie pulak to pampered myself. At first I wanna watch 2012, but they (who went out with me) already watched the movie without me! Grrr.. (They watched it when I went back to Penang few days ago. Isk!) So, we plan to watch A Christmas Carol, but the showing that available didn’t synchronize with our time.

We got other event to catch up later! I promised someone to be there btw. So I need to attend la right?

We just ate, bought some stuff, before we got back to the campus.

Hmm.. I will blog again later. Need to sleep early, I’m working tomorrow.


p/s : Two assignments (both around 20 pages++) need to pass up on 4 Dec. Hope I could do it by time. My 1st paper is on the 30th, last paper on the 8th.